My one and only post for the month of May.

This is gonna be my one and only post for the month of May (written in at 11.41 p.m.)

Life is messy as usual. I am feeling extremely emo these days at work. Work is just no longer fun or interesting to me. I feel like a robot at work and I am a little depressed due to a little work skirmish that occurred like one month ago. For some reason, I can't move on from that incident... I feel so estranged and detached after that little incident. I am filled with self-doubt and the more doubt that I have of myself, the more I think that humans are fundamentally untrustworthy. You can bare your soul to a person thinking that the connection was there, but it could all be a one-sided thing and the person actually has a very different opinion of you.

Damaged things especially relationships cannot be restored. And I hate it when people forces me to do so. I don't wish to. So please if anybody sees this, do me a favour, don't ask me what is wrong and don't give me advice. I appreciate it but I can handle it my way. Thanks.

I hope I won't dwell on this anymore.

To cheer myself a little, I finally went out and got my 2nd pair of sneakers this year. My Nike Dunk SB Mids Batman edition is killing my feet whenever I wear them. I am thinking of condemning that pair already. Why can't they be more like my other pair of Nike Dunk. Damn. Anyway, I got my new sneakers at 10% discount maybe due to the GSS 2009. It's cheaper then Vans, that's all that matters. (I guess.)

I need some casual shirts and pants (& Ties too if they are cheap!), a work belt and a new G-Shock. The Hackintosh that I am still eyeing will remain on my wish list for now. And also a 24" street trial bike. I am thinking of disposing my current huffy for it. Confirm that it is not going to go down well with Mum though.

Surprisingly Dad did his GSS shopping early and surprised the family with a car... in poor economy outlook and scratched it only after half a day! Not that I am super happy about it as I had to bloody pay for it as well. I always had the feeling that I would be the one to draw first blood on the new car. At least he saved me from doing it to his car by scratching it first.

Bro is on his Taipei trip. I hope he has the good sense to buy some slutty magazine and presents for me. I think Bro will laugh his ass off when he hears about dad's latest exploits until he figures that he needs to pay though his nose as well.

Haha!~

"Over and Out"